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Fresh Starts

“Oops. I did it again.” – Britney Spears

I didn’t keep up with my blog… and I’m not sorry. How rude.

On June 4, I posted that my life was going in a new direction. And this could not have been anymore accurate. I began to say that I was going to be on the ultimate minimalist and frugal challenge. I was unemployed and decided to move with only what I could fit in my car.

So where am I today?

I am very please to say that I did bite the bullet and make my big move. On Friday night, 5 July, my dad and I jumped in the car and began the twelve hour drive to Brisbane. I did secure employment. I did give myself the fresh start I said I wanted. I’ve since taken some time out to begin to make Brisbane feel like home, settle into a new job, learn to drive around in a capital city and work out public transport. Not to mention gain some weight because capital city food is amazing… as are the drinks. As of late, I’ve had chances to start to reflect on it all and how it has made me feel.

My blog was all about plan and purpose. And I had a plan… and I threw it out the window. I now sit here wondering if this is what I had thought a fresh start would look and feel like. Quite frankly, no. The thing about fresh starts is that they are exactly that… they are a new beginning. When you’re already on a plan and a path, you have a direction. When you make such a dramatic jump, sometimes it feels like going backwards. I do admittedly feel a bit lost at the moment… but that’s okay. I’m learning to be kinder to myself.

I’ve sat here for the last few weeks wanting to blog about this move, but not knowing what to say. Everything my blog had stood for now felt like fraud. My blog was about goals, working towards financial freedom and being a minimalist.

This blog once spoke about saving money by not buying a coffee everyday… and guess who has bought a coffee every day. I was documenting no spend weekends, and I’ve almost become a shopaholic. I had monthly goals and now I only have one for the rest of the year.

I attended Xerocon 2019 for the last few days and I think this was the push I needed to blog again. We were privileged to hear from a lot of incredible speakers. There was a lot of thought provoking content that made me realise why I started all of this. I started blogging because I’m human, with a voice and just like anyone else I am trying to find my way through life. I was surrounded by like minded people, who don’t find goals and spreadsheets nerdy or lame. It was the wake up call I needed. Just because I had a fresh start, didn’t mean I needed to completely reinvent my personality or hide my peculiar niche interests of minimalism, finance and living life with intention.

Here’s the biggest thing I have learnt after this move.

Life has a beautiful, but completely absurd, way of nudging you in a direction. I decided not to share about why I had become unemployed in my previous post. I didn’t really know what I could or couldn’t say. I was given a choice to stay with the company or to take redundancy. I sat there thinking why me, just like a disposable cog in the machine at first. A friend then mentioned, I wanted to move so why didn’t I take it as a sign. And so I did. This was the mainly the reason I could move.

I had worked out whilst I was in New Zealand in May that I wanted to move. The plan was January 2020. I had put myself into such a box of where I worked, who I associated myself with and what my goals were… I simply wasn’t living life and I wasn’t being the person I wanted to be.

I do feel a little bit disappointed in myself that I am not the person that was blogging a few months ago. However, I am still moving forward it’s just on a much slower and more personal trajectory. I think my goal for the rest of the year is to work towards being in the present. Easier said than done and I have absolutely no idea how to even go about it.

I do have some positive points to end on. These points are the reason I feel like I am where I am meant to be in life:

  • I have a job that I am absolutely loving. I am working with my strengths, within an incredible team and have a sense of healthy challenge and pressure again.
  • The house I own back home is taking care of itself.
  • I am on the hunt for a rental – it may be exhausting but it also is quite fun!
  • I got to reconnect with my childhood best friend again.
  • For my 23rd birthday… I got to see my two favourite people get married!

I’d love to hear about your big moves, your life changing moments, your fresh starts. If you have any questions, please feel free to comment, email or get in contact with me over the various socials.

Much Love,
Baby Sloth x

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